In losing weight aspects, I've tried and did so many things, try-outs and what not, I did. Let's refresh, back in 2007, I was on this diet, no rice for one month, all I ate is soup (without fail), bread, vegetables, and fruits. Breakfast, a cup of plain coffee with no sugar, no milk added. Oh. Imagine how I did this for one month? and I actually lose 10kg within that entire period. Oh. and I can't take it any longer, it was SUFFERing. Then, I started to put on weight, like again? oh no. What else did I try? I stop for quite a long time, then when I have pcos, I was scared enough to be tell, I'm on diet again. No junk food, no fast food, and this only last for about two weeks and a month. My supplement was Herbalife. Exercise? Did. But, not as regular as what it should be. hmm. Oh! I forgot to mention, Fitness First, less than 6 month, and I quit. Oh. Wasted. ;( I know.
Now, 2010; I keep on thinking to lose weight and at least to burn the thousand of fats and calories I have. Where do I start? Tell me, please. This is the time where I can't wait to start my studies in the UK, and be a student again. And be active in sports, I'm thinking of joining a sports that create a team, like hockey, soccer and etc. Whatever I have dream on, I wish it will be reality one day. Hopefully. Like in KTJ, I miss having sports in KTJ. Squash, hockey for house team (even tho it only for practice and fun, it was good), hockey back in Convent school, badminton during sports time, tennis during sports time and weekend, and I miss sports. ;(
I have an imagination. Big imagine, illusion. I want to study hard and smart, and be active in sports, club and society and do whatever things I can do there and prove to my parents and family that they are not wasting their money and sacrifices on sending me there for a further study. Phew.
Second part, what have I done on being the youngest in this family? Did I break the rules? What have I done? Big mistakes? Oh. Tell me please. I feel like there's less communication in this family. I don't know why. Huu. I am just being a 21 years old teen who wants to have a LIFE like other friends did. LIFE, FUN, ENJOY, this is all what I want right now. I mean, I know you, sisters and brothers have gone through these age, even mom and dad does. Right? But, there's a big DIFFERENCES during your time and my time. Seriously. Things changed, and I have my own attitude, and I know I'm not a discipline daughter or sister to you guys, even I know I went to KTJ, at least you guys want to look me in a very proper and discipline way with the British education I had learnt.
I can't make myself be a discipline person. But, at least I TRY. I try my best, very best to make it work. Maybe you will see me with-a-person-without-attitude, but we'll see one day, things maybe difference, and I will CHANGE, change for good. InsyaAllah.
I think I wrote an essay already, haha. Sorry readers, there's too many distraction I have in my mind. Just too many. Huu.
I can't wait to start my studies. Whoa.
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