Saya nekad!

I am very bad in making decision. But, lately there's lot of things happened in me, between me and the familia. But, I can't take this any longer. Like seriously, I can't. I have to stop myself on being this plan-life. Thanks a lot to my beloved chentakuh on giving me support, words that I can move on, thanks to my friends who knows I feel and willing to lend their ears for listening, thanks to Abg Lan who understand the situation very well, and give me some words for me to think, re-think and move on with this.

It took me weeks for me to decide, it took me hours to make me feel better, after that. ;( but, in the end I know I have to stick with that ONE decision.

I want to quit. I want to stop working by end of April.
Starting May, all I want to do is to stay at home; at least I can do something better. At least I can find my way out during May-June, since this is the time when my beloved is back for his semester break. So, does my other friend that they will be free around this period too. To avoid being over control very much, it is better this way. ;(
Starting July, I have only 2 months before I leave to the UK! whee. He will also be starting his practical around this entire month, and this is sad. because, the moment I want to have him close with me, the moment he has to survive and sacrifice for his future. ;( and it will be more sad, if his graduating after September, when I'm not here. but, nevermind You know I'm proud of you kan syg? hee. ;(

On the side note. Oh! JUNE. Finally, now I know when will I get my visa letter. It will be around JUNE/JULY. New rules, they will only give the letter 3 months before your courses start. :) and also, accommodation. Next week, I'll be going to settle it down. heehaa. My UNI start on the 3rd day of Hari Raya. Oh! :(

11th August - Ramadhan begin ( a day before my birthday? oh! sedihnya )
10th August - Hari Raya begin ( and 13th September, UNI starts! oh! i know it ain't cool, but it can be fun. ;) )
* subject to change anyway, this is just from the courtesy of the calendar. hee.

Till here. So long and good night.
GOD, please give me strength for me to SPEAK. amin.