Suddenly.

Its 6.40pm on Sunday, this is the usual time when I pack my stuff and get myself back to KTJ from exeat. Darn! Somehow I miss those days, KTJ days. I dunno why, maybe that's the time when I am away from my family or dunno. I have no idea. The day when my only focus is to study and away from my mum's everday nagging. This and that. The do's and dont's. Even tho it is only 2 years but I am very thankful that I had the experience of being a KTJ student. The environment, the friends that I bond too. I am feeling like typing because.. I am just bored in my room, in a darkness accompany by the music that I'm listening too and with my handphone beside me. Nothing interesting. But, that is my Sunday for today. After watching 27 Dresses an hour ago, and then went off to KFC to buy 5 pieces of chicken, a twister and zinger max. hee. And then, back home and this is me now typing for a blog. Nothing better that I can think of to do now - so I'm blogging. haha.

Are you happy with your family? What is it like your Sunday would be with your family at home? The whole one big happy family staying at home and when there's a time one of us/them asking let's go out to have some hi-tea or window shopping or whateva stuff that can makes everybody feels happy. I am sure that all of you will surely goin through that moment kan? When on Sundays, we can't go out because it's Sunday. Family day. But, as for me. I am not. Stay at home. Online and do my own stuff in my own world. That is my Sunday.

Last night I was ym-ing with fara. We were expressing and arguing about our life, our similarity in common that we have - control and actually I'm really easy-going friend and one thing about her is we have similarities in some part, music, how we want to enjoying life. and the list go on.. We also think the same thing which is are our boyfriends can be able to understand us? Really? are they? We are not like other girls who can easily go out, grab their car-keys, put on their favourite outfit and wooshh.. go out to whenever they wanna go. we are not like that. Our parents are like the same. We keep arguing why our bro can be back home late at night kan? The answer is always like this 'he is a boy, so he can do whateva he wants, he can take care of himself'. But, unlike us, 11pm her dad will start calling while my mum will start calling around 8pm - 10pm. Yeah. Then, we answered their call, we answered their questions, they put back the phone like on the spot. Ok, fine. We will always be home. Its not that we don't be back home. kan? Do you ever feel like we want to ran away from home? I'm sure everybody does. kan? is that true?

And now.. I must signing off before my mum come after me again said 'izzah, mak kata berhenti..' twice and can't even bother for thrice. Darn! Why is it always like this? Look! I know what am I doing. I know its 7.11 pm maghrib. So, i know I should get up from this bed and take my shower and perform maghrib prayer. Ok! I know. I am not a kid. I can think and I am able to think. Heesh!

Kadang² aku benci hidup penuh dengan kawalan.
Aku tak tahu apa mak bapak aku nak aku jadi.
Aku tak tahu apa yang boleh memuaskan hati mereka.
Kakak dan abang juga tidak memahami aku.
Macam mana?
Want your years will be exactly like mine?
Like what you see now?
Huhu.

I don't know and I can't even bother.
To make it clearly, your life of being a teenagers has past.
This is my life. Now, this is what you guys have to face.
Jealous of me. Sorry brother and sisters.

One day,
I hope my situation, my expressions can be understand by my family, especially.
I hope my wish will be fullfilled too.
One day.
Just believe in that ONE FINE DAY.
The day when you know what best for you and others will understand you better than what you are asking for.
One day.

Feel like tune in some Simple Plan songs (welcome to my life)
hee~
End of post.
bye.