Pelbagai

Betul kata orang, kalau dua dua belah mata asyik nak berkelip je, tanda nya nak nangis atau nak jumpa orang jauh. And now, I'm crying.

Boleh di kata kan hari² tak kira pagi ke petang ke siang ke malam ke, mata ni asyik nak berkelip je. Dah lama jugak lah macam ni, then aku tanya kakak kat office, dorang cakap tu tanda nak nangis atau nak jumpa orang jauh. Sebab aku ingatkan sakit mata, or gatal² (allergic) then aku abaikan je la nak jumpa doktor.

Pastu malam ni, memang aku nangis. Aku risau kat chenta kuh, yang demam, batuk, selsema and pening kepala, dia nak final, nak exam, nak presentation semua tue. B, be strong syg. Be good tau. Jgn degil please syg, dgr ckp ma. Minum air suam banyak².

Pastu aku sedih baca blog ni - http://supermom0978.blogspot.com/. Sedih sangat bila baca blog ni. Seorang ibu telah kehilangan tawa dan duka nya ketika anak dia berumur 15 bulan. Sedih sangat bila baca blog ni, entri yang dia post dari from how to when to why. Pastu ada 1 note ni aku nak share bersama;

Sad Sunday- Al-Fatihah


Woke up at 630am as usual.
But something is no longer the same.

I will never hear Arwah Dzafri's laughter again.
Nor would i be able to watch him crawl towards me in joy.

Tata picked me up at 715am.
We hardly talked to Baya's house.

As i approached towards Baya's house,
i know ..
i won't be able to see Arwah Dazfri greeting me at the door.

Baya's mom was the first person i saw.

Then there she was,
my dear friend Baya
in the kitchen.
She came towards me.
"Zul, my baby is gone."
Her words struck me like lightning.

I was given the opportunity to descry Arwah's peaceful face.
He was like an angel.
Asleep.

It was not a sight for the faint hearted.
To see a father carrying his 15-month-old son's limp body to the mosque.

Later at the mosque,
i could not control my tears
as i watched both parents preparing their son for burial.

Baya nearly collapsed at the burial ground
after kissing her son goodbye for the last time,
i was there to hold her tight.

The sight of her crying made me realise,
that my mother must have gone through something similar
when my late brother passed away at the age of 7.

Death is still something new to me.
I am not yet a mother.
But it doesn't mean that i feel no pain or sorrow.

"One thing that we must remember is that death is inevitable,
and everything except the Almighty God of course,
will perish"
[http://www.ezsoftech.com/Akram/death.asp]

AL-FATIHAH

For my non-muslim friends
"When a Muslim dies, a close relative of the same gender washes his body, perfumes it, if possible, and wraps it tightly in a plain white cloth. A congregational funeral prayer is performed, and then the body is placed in a deep grave. The body is positioned on its right side, facing in the direction of Mecca."
[http://wiki.answers.com]


xoxo - an average shopaholic bUi -

p/s: this mommy's blog copyrighted. thank you.

Sedih sangat bila aku baca part ni -

The sight of her crying made me realise,

that my mother must have gone through something similar
when my late brother passed away at the age of 7.

The sight of her crying made me realize, that my mother must have gone through something similar, when my late brother passed away at the age of 8. I'm not born yet at this time.

My sister also had experienced the loss of her child, miscarriage.

And I always said this to myself; kenapa aku tak dapat tengok arwah abang aku? Mungkin Allah lebih menyayangi dia and inilah hadiah Allah kepada mak dan abah ku, setelah kehilangan arwah. Nama arwah abang aku Mohd Faiz. Meninggal ketika umur dia 8 tahun, sebab lemas. Al-fatihah abang Faiz.

Pastu bila aku fikir² balik dan bermuhasabah diri, aku nak berubah, tapi aku tak tau macam mana nak mulakan, aku ada simptom/sakit Pcos, aku tau aku kena jaga pemakanan atau seelok eloknya diet and and lose weight, sebab aku ada masalah period tak menentu. Allah dah bagi aku sign, jaga pemakanan, jaga diri semua, tapi aku? Kena kuruskan badan, supaya nanti boleh betulkan period tu, ianya mungkin tak memberi efek masa sekarang, tapi jika diizinkan Allah, masa dah berumah tangga nanti. Orang lain maybe akan risau bila period tak datang, tapi aku relaks je sebab aku tau aku memang jenis lambat datang period. Pastu aku rasa aku tak macam pompuan² yang lain dah. Aku macam kat dunia aku sendiri. Huu.

Apa perlu aku buat? Aku rasa dah mula masa nya aku kena kuruskan badan, selain nampak cantik dan berseri, dapat juga jaga kesihatan diri sendiri.

Rasa macam nak jumpa doktor balik lah.

Nak pergi klinik famili BTS tempat mana aku jumpa dietician untuk nak kurus sewaktu tika dahulu

dan

Doktor gynea dekat Pantai. (Pergi untuk 2 minggu je, then aku tak buat weekly check up dah)

Kenapa?

Bagaimana?

To my chentakuh,

Get well soon syg!

Jaga diri mcm mana b jaga ma.

Jangan degil² tau.

Hugs&kisses, ma.