" There will be more to come izzah. You just have to wait. :) ".

Quote above is my line whenever I don't get what I want, whenever God test me with various situation, whenever I don't get the fun of what I can't have now. But, there will be more to come. It will, but with patience in yourself. It will happen, one day. InsyaAllah.

Yesterday, I had this conversation with whom I close with at my dad's office. She treat me like her adik, and I treat her like my kakak. Not the same as what I have, two kakaks with the same blood, but there's the differences.

I have this kind of thinking and feeling whenever I don't get what I want, I know I will get it but it takes time and it test my patience. Yes. I do have this kind of feeling. Whenever I think of giving up, giving up by stop working but I can't. There's always reason behind of all this. Somehow, the reasons and upcoming we can't feel it, we can't know it, but we do realize it is actually is.

Why can't I have fun like my friends does? Like my loves does? They can always be happy and enjoy and have fun like there's no tomorrow. But, I have to do my commitment here at home, with the family, mom and dad. This is actually a gift from Allah that He gave me chance and a room to me to spend my time with my family, while I do still have time. While, I do still have them. This is the reason why. I can't have the fun that I want it now, in here. I can't have everything that I want it right now, on the spot. But, I will have it and experience it sooner or later. The days will come, they days will arrive, it just the matter of time. It will be more challenging, harder than what I've experience in here.

The fun and happiness can't be the same, but at least I will have them one day. Hopefully. At this early age of 20's, I have the chance to further my studies overseas and I may not get the chance to go there, without my parent's hard works and sacrifices. Thank you Allah. Thank you mak and abah. I may not have score A's in every examination I've sat, but I want to make them happy with my studies and career in future. I'll try to make the money worth it my studies and so the experience I will have.

Chances are there, it is the matter of how you look at it and take it. To turn it up to be good or to be bad, it is all yours.

Example; I may not have the chance to have the fun now, but in July, I will. Hopefully. 1 week Hong Kong trip. Hee. And I hope, this time around when I do plan things, it will happen for real. BBQ sessions and to gather my friends in June.

How I managed to wait for three years to further study in the UK? and this is test from Him, how did I managed to wait for three years? and completed my diploma in here, and now I have to wait for few more months. After SPM, I have the feeling to further study overseas straight, but why I can't? It is actually a chance from Him, that at least I have and can experience studies in here before I take the risk of it in the future. I may not known and in love with my one and only mr. Syafiq Sapian. I may not have friends like what I have now.

Thank you Allah. Thank you for making me realize, that one single thing happened to us, is actually a level for us to take another chances in life. Another opportunity. Allah itu maha adil lagi bijaksana.

Till here.

:)